I'm not sure if I'll ever learn that I can't control things, because plans will change. I've recently started reading the devotional, Jesus Calling. I love that everyday it speaks exactly what I need to hear whether I want to hear it or not. I read it, but do I really soak in the words? Sometimes I do, and sometimes I still have a hard time trusting in those devotions. Trust has become increasingly hard lately. With each let down, it's another lost hope. It's another plan that's been broken. This house stuff is absolutely one of the most stressful things I've ever done and I chose to do it. Each day when you think you're almost to the end, something changes that we have zero control over. So many things and people and pieces of paper go into this whole process and I only know one side. I don't always trust the process but that means I don't trust in God and that makes me feel horrible. In all the chaos and life changes, He has never changed and never faulted. Today's devotional couldn't have been more on point. This life isn't scattered although I like to act like it is and the more I realize that the closer I'll be to a life of contentment with God. That's a life to love and a trust I pray for daily. I really think May is going to be a grand month and I'm looking forward to it. I hope you all are too! Happy May Day!