loving it...

this video is on the new LG commercial. and although a little strange, i am obsessed.

If it were only so simple...

as a sweet little blue eyed asking for santa to bring her some scissors for christmas. Or if it were only so simple as that same little girl saying the her little brother will be named merry christmas. If life were only as simple as the sweet little moments that cost absolutely nothing, and mean the world to so many people. Because at one point in our lives, we were really that simple. I guess we call it the little things. Then one day life got got complicated. We started receiving bills in the mail, had people rely on us, and realized that there are actually bad people in this complicated little world. If it were only as simple as it used to be.

If it were only as simple as the doctor saying we will get this figured out, If it were only so simple, I guess we would then know how to make radiation not so hard on someone so precious. If it were only so simple, maybe they would actually get this figured out. For now, we will stick with continuous feeding through a PEG and hope that some nutrients are actually being absorbed. We will continue to push fluids through a port that is intended for the chemotherapy still left to be finished. For now, we will hope that the answers are oh so simple.  If life were so simple, we could all just ask for scissors from santa, instead of being healed from a nasty cancer. We could ask for scissors instead of being free of pain. We could ask for scissors instead of throwing up after every single meal. But life just isn't that simple anymore, we take the little moments for granted, and forget to remember what matters the absolute most. We want when we don't need, we frown when we aren't sad, and we lose the simplicity in the most UNcomplicated of life's unexpected journeys. today i ask for prayers for my sweet, precious aunt, and hope that the doctors really do get it all figured out. ***While we forget the simplicity in being able to drive through a fast food restaurant and take a big honking bite of a chik-fil-a sandwich, someone else can't even swallow like they used to be able too. all they want for christmas is to be able to eat normally again. that is pretty simple. pretty priceless. let's keep it simple.

GASP...

I am coming up for air, only for a minute though.

Today we had test NUMBER FOUR... you know,

the dreaded one about the heart,
and big words I won't use,

and stuff like this

that would be dysrhtythmias. YIKES.

so I am

VERY

SORRY

I skipped out on my days,

but studying was WAY more important.

Although, not nearly as fun.

So now I am going back under to study for the final!!!

okay, inhale BIG DEEP BREATH,

and I'm OUT.

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1.Holiday spirit is lovely, as long as you're in the spirit. its so refreshing.

2. The holidays are incomplete without family and decorations.

3. My favorite things to do around the holidays is  decorating the christmas tree, putting up the decorations, shopping for gifts, and making christmas candies!

4.  A holiday tradition my family and I have is  umm,,, we don't really have traditions that we do each year, not that i can think of at the moment. except we always open our stockings first, but doesn't everyone? and that is one of my favorite parts.

5.  Holiday music is AMAZING, luckily they started playing it back in november.

6.  This year, I'll be spending the holidays  with mine and kyle's family.

7.  Holiday wish list: reebok easy tones, a giftcard to charming charlies, over the shoulder purse, and a netbook if santa feels extra generous. :)

if you have a chance...

i got my "love bomb" email today, and didn't know i would need an entire box of kleenex. if you have just a moment, you should read it at http://veronking2003.blogspot.com/ . someone's struggles are far greater than mine, FAR FAR GREATER.

DAY 12.

Today after hitting the snooze 6 times (its only set on 5 minute intervals), I will get up, and check my phone 100x, but see that I really do have to go to work, although I still do not feel very good. I will stop and get one hot chocolate with WHOLE milk, and scurry into work. I will be bombarded, but notice that the day is flying by. I will even receive this from one of my sweet little supporter of the troops patients. I will gladly and proudly wear it in honor of our service men and women.

I will leave work promptly @ 3pm and head to feed my family member who was recently diagnosed with adenocarcinoma. They had a peg tube placed today because regular feedings became nearly impossible. I will talk with them, and they will tell me not to come if I am too tired. But I think, sure I feel AWFULLY congested (but not contagious because no fever), but how could I be more tired than someone going to radiation everyday and chemo once a week for 7 weeks, with 5 weeks to go. I will gladly go assist them, because I'm not too tired to do something so very simple, yet important. I will be very grateful for this family member, because selfish me would love to curl up in my warm flannel snowman sheets

and snooze after dosing up on mucinex, but their struggles are far greater. 

And I will think, today is NOT about me.

I will go home and begin reading chapter 36. Its the one about DYSrhythmias. I will be confused and read each section multiple times. I will draw pictures of each abnormal rhythm, and I will study. I will study so very hard because I know I only have 12 days left. That is less than 2 weeks. But still, it is 12 long days before I can say goodbye to this semester. 

But I know, no matter what, I will be just fine.

DAY 13.

Today I will wake up thinking I'm in a horrible dream, because it is just 0430, and have to quickly remind myself to get up and get moving, to make it to the hospital by 0630. However, I will hit the snooze just a few more times. The drive will be horrible, because the weather is frightening, and tornadoes are lingering throughout the cities. But I make it. I get my very last clinicals over with for this semester, and I will be thankful, although, the killer allergies are only getting worse. I will leave clinicals, and make it to my car partially NOT DRY thanks to some more rain.

However, I will still be thankful, because

no more clinicals until the next and FINAL semester.
I will go home, crack open chapter 34. Its the one about Coronary Artery Disease and Myocardial Infarctions, and I will diligently read, make note cards, answer every study guide question, and absorb, until I go to bed. Of course, I will eat sometime, and maybe even watch Glee. Then I will go to bed, and 

cross my fingers that there aren't enough sick people 

who need me at work in the morning. 

But we all know it is still 13 whole days
until the end of this semester. 

And I remind myself, I CAN do this.