April 27, 2011

Have you ever seen the aftermath of a war zone? What happened here yesterday much worse. I feel beyond thankful that we were unharmed and untouched by the havoc the touched barely 100 yards away from my sister's house. Not everyone was as lucky. Actually, I know they weren't. I saw it with my own eyes. It took my breath away. And this was only one neighborhood. It happened in several others. Several people I know have lost everything. The college town I spent many days in is now a pile of ruble for someone to clean up. The shops I visited, the roads I drove on are all gone. In an instant, everything was taken. Like I said, I am very thankful to have had nothing damaged in that storm. Several HUNDRED were not so lucky. Several peoples lives were taken, and there are still people left to be found today. A good friend huddled in his bathtub while every wall in his apartment uprooted right beside him. He is thankful to still be here. Several other friends lost childhood homes. For them it wasn't just belongings that can eventually be replaced, it was their entire life. I don't know what that feels like. I don't want to even imagine that feeling. As my brother in law and I were walking the streets last night, I told him, we aren't taught this in nursing school. The chaos in the hospital is very much controlled. The chaos last night was far from it. There were people wandering around looking for anything they could find. We were just walking around in a state a shock. What happened in the south yesterday was very much a disaster. Please keep them all in your thoughts and prayers.

 The first picture is one of my good friend's jeep. The rest are from my sister's community.

Nursing Nonsense :: Week Sixteen

WEEK SIXTEEN IS HERE.

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We actually have finished lecture, but today we had a picnic.

I also bought my cap and gown today!!!

eeeeek. I was pretty excited about it, 

so now I am just looking forward to wearing it

FOR REAL. Wednesday is our last test before finals, so I am going to go back to studying for now.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter weekend. I got pretty spoiled. Friday we went to Outback and Saturday we went to PF Changs. 

It was all DELICIOUS! Check out my fortune cookie. 

I think it will definitely come in handy once I become a working girl!

HAPPY HAPPY MONDAY Y'ALL!!

Oh, Saturday.

So I have been saying I have two tests & two finals. Well, that is a big fat LIE. I was looking the other day, and I have ONE test (this Wednesday) then just 2 finals !! That is pretty great news if you are wondering. 

Also, I have some other pretty awesome news, but it isn't signed on the dotted line JUST YET, so I will wait to share.
For now, I am off to enjoy my favorite day!  

Happy Saturday!!

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Nursing Nonsense :: Week Fifteen

 

FIFTEEN??

SAY WHAT??

This week of fifteen means many things.

Less than 3 weeks away from graduation.

I'm still 2 tests and 2 finals away,

and I have officially turned in all the

EXTRA work.

I had a few more small things to get done,

and all of that is FINISHED.

We had a meeting with the Dean of Nursing, and we

can officially register for our license and boards

MAY 2! eeeek.

I hope everyone is having a great week!!

Whomp Whomp Whomp

So, if you follow me on twitter then you know that my beloved iPhone fell into a cup of dr.pepper while I was driving. Rice didn't work, and the poor little guy did not make it out alive. I think it was tired of me talking about him. Luckily, my Dad has an old iphone that he graciously let me borrow, so I was only away for a day or so. I realized just how convenient simple this phone has made my life, and I desperately missed it. Sad, I know. Well, I guess my computer monitor decided it was time to go too. Friday night I noticed the screen was blinking on and off, and it hasn't worked since. I'm thinking it's just the monitor, so I hope nothing was lost. This computer was my first big purchase after I graduated high school. I saved up all summer so I could have it for college. It was a sad day when it wouldn't turn on. But since technology is a little less complicated these days, I can still blog via my BLOGPRESS app. Phew! Looks like I have something else to save up for once I have my big girl nursing job.

RIP


and


You will be greatly missed!

Nursing Nonsense :: Week Fourteen

FOURTEEN!!!!!!!!

This week started off with some pretty nasty weather, which consisted of me hanging out in the bathroom until it all passed. Luckily, no tornadoes were ever spotted! Tuesday was a work day, and today is

MY
DADDY'S
BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

He sure is a good one!

Also on the agenda for the day was our second exit exam.

We only get three chances, I didn't pass the first one, but I am THANKFUL to say that I PASSED THIS ONE. HALLELUJAH . It was tough, so I am beyond grateful that I no longer have to stress about it. 

That is it for this week of school. We are down to 2 more tests, and 2 more finals!!! 

Happy 

Happy 

Wednesday!!!

all we have to do is believe.

Everything happens for a reason.
All we have to do is believe.
Sometimes that just doesn't feel like enough.

Although we may question and always wonder, whatever is going to happen will happen.

I question.
Its only normal.
We wonder what led us here.
Or not so much what led us, but why we were led in this direction.
I know what.
I talk about it all the time.
It was those choices, the ones I made.

But why?
I seem to always need an answer.
For everything. Whether I like it or not. It is that over analyzer thing going on.
I either need an answer, or I will figure out one on my own.
That's why I like google so much.
It seriously has an answer for everything. Well, almost everything.
The big important questions I can't ever seem to find on google, or bing, or yahoo.  
And let's be clear, I am very partial to google. Those are just the other websites for anyone else who might use them instead.
So I have to search a little deeper.

Why?

I don't want to question, but I do.

I don't have every answer to that question.  However, I am coming to a new chapter in my life.One that several friends have already begun.One that doesn't involve class, late night study parties, and too many red bulls.No, it involves the real world.The life after the madness, or maybe that is when the real madness begins.No one really knows for sure.Google sure doesn't have that answer.Let's be honest, I just knew I would be settled down at this point. And by settled, we are talking settled, close to a future with someone else.Let's be even more honest, that is nowhere in sight.Of course, I know what happened.I even know some of the why. But the big picture, I still questioned. Until the other day. I am going to be a little corny. I always knew, or thought that I knew that  my brothers and sister and I would have children and a family around the same age. You know, so they could all grow up with one another.I love the bond of close families.I think it is one of the most special things EVER. It makes me happy. I always dreamed that is how my life would play out. Well, like mentioned earlier, I am nowhere near that stage in my life.So the niece and nephews might help raising my littles one day. That is okay too.I know we still be as close as we are.But what is even better? The bond I have with some very special little ones. It is a bond I talk about very much, because no one could ever put into words how it makes me feel. I know that if I were to be settled down, or in a different place right this moment, that bond would not be nearly as close.I am thankful to still be just a college student, and just a part time worker. I can see them whenever I want. And I do.Because I love playing in tents, and running from the monsters, and watching Cinderella 3 days in a row. I promise you, I wouldn't trade it for the world.

So I don't need an answer.
I don't need to know why.
My why is pretty clear these days.

Round and Round we go

Have you ever been to a snazzy hotel ? One with the big revolving door? Or maybe even a fancy business in a big city? I mean, they have the regular doors too. Just the normal, open and close, in and out. But those aren't nearly as exciting. Now the revolving doors are  pretty fun, right? Only until you have gone  around so many times that it has made you sick.

Insert my life:
I will LITERALLY compare it to a revolving door.
Lets go back about 5 years.
This door was big, looked like lots of fun, and everyone was jumping in for the ride. So I jumped too.
It was scary at first, but a blast to say the least. It was non stop round and round fun.
It didn't take long for it to get out of control and I had to get out to catch my breath. Which happened, then we were right back in again. There is no telling why we continued in that revolving door, but we couldn't resist. The temptations were too great. Temptations were and are still clearly not on my side.

Now this revolving door, I am was still in and out. It was the same ole same ole. I'd live life a little bit, I would try something else, then I was right back in. It was a constant thing. It never seems to stop. It isn't nearly as fun as it used to be. The fun wore off a long time ago, but I am still hanging on for dear life. Not really. I'm just spinning in circles  waiting to get off. I don't think I want to get back in once I get out this last time. I'm sure I have said that one million times previously but it is really starting to take it's toll. I mean how many times can you go in the same circle? How many times can you get on the same ride? We all know the ending.

We just don't want to believe it.
So we take one more spin.

Maybe this could be it?

But I'm getting dizzy.
I'm way past sick to my stomach,
And I'm ready to jump.

I think know I'll use the other door next time.

walking like a one man army...

You ever feel like you have something to tell someone but you don't, and before you can get around to it, it's too late? I have felt like that. However, for the most part I wear my heart on my sleeve. I say what I feel. I might have wished I didn't say it, but more than not I say it anyways. With a big gulp, I just do it. I would rather say it now then it be too late tomorrow. Nonetheless, there have  been plenty of times when I did not always say what I felt or what I should have said. Have you heard the song by mr John Mayer?
He says it clear as day.

...Say what you need to say...

Lately, or ALWAYS, I reflect on everything. 

So with everything going on recently, it is only natural to do some extra reflecting.

A little searching,

I am always wondering what I could have done or said differently.

I know that we should not dwell on the past, 

maybe we should just take a quick look back to see how far we have come.
It might be dangerous.
It might be scary.
But I have tried the not looking back thing and I'm too nosy not to turn around.
So I will take a glance at what used to be.

And afterwards,
I will say what I need to say.
I will feel what I have to feel.
you should too...

after all, tomorrow is never a guarantee.

And because I am partially obsessed with the guy who the wrote the song, I will take a look at the all the handsome pictures of him too.

now, welcome to my world. ha.

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Than never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say...

And the winner is....

I mentioned that yesterday was a little fantastic. I wasn't so much talking about the school part, just what happened while at school. We had this nutrition seminar. Really, it was just a sales person trying to sell us last semester nursing kiddos some cookware. On the plus side, they are helping pay for our graduation and pinning ceremony. They also told us there were going to be door prizes, so we went. One of the door prizes? A cruise/Bahamas trip for two! No, seriously! It is a one day cruise to the Bahamas, stay 3 nights at the Bahamas, then cruise home or back to Ft. Lauderdale. That's where the boat will leave from. Of course, you will have to pay for the food and expenses, but the rest is covered. Well, guess who won???? Have you figured it out???

It was me.

Me

Myself

And

I.

I thought it was pretty random that I won, but I'm still pretty pumped about it. So far, I haven't heard of the catch, but we will see. The trip is good for a year, and I can't register until May 10 (graduation)!

On a side note, one of my first trips in college was to the Bahamas.

Here is a little trip down memory lane.

Now I get to end college with a trip to the same place. I think it will definitely be a good end to a super long chapter. I'm pretty tired of reading this book anyway.

Nursing Nonsense :: Week Thirteen

Week thirteen has been a pretty fantastic week, especially today. The week started off with a test about nuero & burns, that would be critical care at it's finest. We also had some pretty nasty weather around here, but nothing too major. Tuesday, I DID NOT HAVE CLINICALS, and today we had our Dose Cal (short for dosage calculations) test. Say the doctor orders 4 grams of a medicine, but you only have 12mg/5ml on the floor. How much would you give? There are 7 questions on the test, so we can only miss 2! We have this test each semester and must pass with 2 tries in order to move to the next semester. Today, we had our last Dose Cal test, and we turned in our portfolio. Phew. Just two more things to check off that mile long list to be completed before May 9! However, the days are getting closer, I'm getting more anxious, and this ride is only getting faster. I'm hanging on for dear life!

The rest of the week, I will be joining the normal world, and just working. Maybe I will blog a little more.


Happy Wednesday!