Today is the day

My mom said to set a date. Set a date to say today is the day. Today is the day that you won't look back. Everyone deserves time to grieve and be bitter and cry. Some a little longer than others, but if we make a habit out of it then we are just letting something control us that we have no control over. Now what good comes from that? Absolutely nothing. We have no control. We gave it all to God. He closed this door we thought we would have opened for forever because He has something grander in mind. I might still be impatiently waiting, but I'm sure the wait will be worth it. Is it fair, probably not. But life's not fair and that's a whole other blog entry in general. So today is my day. After today, I'm to leave my past exactly where it belongs and I'm to wake up every single day with a better mindset than the day before. Hard? Well that's an understatement. But if I keep living this woe is me life, then I'm giving all the power to someone who doesn't deserve it. Today I'm taking everything I have left and I'm leaving on a jet plane. I'm saying so long to that chapter and I'm starting a new one. Today I get to see my brother and sister in law and spend the next five days with my best friends in Texas. Of course I'll be back, but not back where everything went so wrong. I'll be back and then I'll be closing on my very own home and I'll get to start a new chapter... a chapter with blank pages with a fresh new book smell, that's a smell to love. Or maybe it's the smell of a brand new home. Either way, today is the day to never look back, because it only brings me down. Today is for me and I couldn't be more excited to see where it takes me. So long Alabama. I'll see ya soon.

Letting it go.

God teaches us to give Him our burdens. We are told to let go and let God. I think it's easier said than done. We are also taught our whole lives to fight for what we believe in, stand up for what we feel in our heart to be the truth. This is where it gets tricky. Do we fight, or do we let it go? If we do let it go, how in the world do we even do that? That is something that I have been struggling with lately. Letting it go... not fighting and giving it all to God. Fighting for what you love when you're the only one fighting is a tough battle, a battle that will most likely not end in your favor. Maybe it doesn't end the way we have it planned because it's not in God's plans. His plans are far greater, although my patience level tends to steer towards doing it all myself. I've been following along with another blogger in her "I'm ok, 30 days to becoming content where you are." She has some wonderful advice and lots of scriptures that have helped in these trying times. 

She writes, "The truth is majority of the time we just want God to magically fix everything without having to endure the refining process... But, where is His glory revealed in that? First of all, we’re not worthy of that and second, I take comfort in knowing He disciplines those He loves. In the discipline we find ourselves curled up at His feet, feeding on His every truth."

Especially here lately I feel that I have had no answers and it's a constant battle that I'm not so sure I can withstand. God sees it totally different. One of my best friends sent me a quote, "When you are down to nothing, God is up to something." Everyday I cling to those words. Everyday I pray that today will be a new day for me to find comfort in His plans, because mine are no good anyways. I'm not alone in my fight because today I will give it to God to fight it for me.

Click on the link below to follow along with her. You won't be disappointed. 

Shell's Bells

Friday, I met our sweet Michele to pick up my race packet. This was my very first race, and I couldn't be more proud to honor such a special person.

A few people did the 5k run, but most of us did the fun run (1 mile walk). Overall, we had about 35 team members, ranging from 3 months to 76 years young! I think Reece Anne was the youngest runner there! Michele is an inspiration to us all, and I couldn't think of anywhere I would rather be than by her side during this journey. We love you so so much!!

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year

We took this same picture last year. Too bad the little ones could care less about taking pictures. haha. We had a wonderful Christmas with tons of food, family and fun. I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas as well.

On New Year's Eve, we went to a wedding. This girl was pooped after the past two weeks so we took it easy at home! Happy New Year everyone. May 2012 be the best one yet!

Nursing Nonsense:: Week Ten

Hello and so long to week ten! This week has been rather exhausting, fun, anxiety-filled, and PRAISE worthy. Thank you all so so much for your sweet comments about our new little fella. He is doing much better, although we did have a minor set back on Thursday. However, it was not nearly what the doctors thought and baby Judson is doing so much better. My sister and brother in law have gotten to hold him twice now, and I know they are so thankful for that. He has so many wonderful people looking over him, praying for him, caring for him, and it is awesome to see all of it truly working. The NICU is very aware of NOT GIVING TIME FRAMES, which is okay in the long run, so we really do not know when he will be home. I know God is teaching us all patience because although Judson was ready to get here, he just isn't quite ready to go home. So we will wait. The days will go by very slow, I will tell everyone to give him a kiss from me (because I can't go back there), and I will continue to pray for his healing. Thank you all again so much.

on the flip side::

There was A LOT of nursing in week ten, but none of it really had to do with me in nursing school. Besides welcoming a new nephew, my week was spent playing with my favorite two year old who is a new big sister, catching up on some much needed sleep, hanging out with great friends, and enjoying what could be my last spring break, AND watching all of my favorite shows of course. I was so very happy my faves were safe on American Idol, Emily won the Bachelor, and a new season of one of my favorite shows airs in April! eeeeeekkk.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!!!

Happy Week TEN!!

God is Good

ALL THE TIME.

here is an update on our sweet Aunt Lynn.

****Post radiation follow-up CT scan looks GREAT! 5cm mass reduced to 1cm, think its just scar tissue; neck is clear; lymph nodes in middle chest are all normal size. Taking 2 wks off from chemo to give bone marrow a break. She is having problems swallowing, seeing the surgeon to discuss. Please pray that she will be able to eat on her own soon. 

 PRAISE THE LORD! 

but mrsAdryne still needs our prayers. please continue to check out her caringbridge for all of the updates.