Hooked.

This is going to sound terrible.

Last night, my phone did NOT have SERVICE. I think a tower must have been down, because it was going in and out of having service,

to searching,


to none. NADA.


Let me restate that this is going to sound terrible.

However, I swear my little heart was aching as each moment passed and I looked down to see my lifeline unavailable. Withdrawals? Yes. Frustrating? Double yes.

I use my phone for everything. Doesn't mostly everyone?
I have become so dependent on this hand held device, that I probably couldn't go more than a couple of days without it. Who am I kidding? One day is plenty long enough.

One time my crackberry froze up on me for a day. CRAZY. I panicked to get to a store, panicked to get a new phone, and panicked to see who had called or texted me.

Last night was looking the same way. I had service for not even a minute, then it vanished. I just hoped they would have it fixed soon.

But why?
Because our world has become so hooked on technology and Internet and SIMPLE, that we barely know anything else.

Now this is where I would say something encouraging about how maybe I should step back from the computerized world, and see this as a much needed cleansing break. Say how I think everything has become so complicated, and how I wish I could do away some of the stressors in my life. I would even come close to saying that I spend way too much time on that phone anyways, so maybe I should try to go without it more often.

This is also where I WILL NOT SAY THESE THINGS BECAUSE I WANT MY SERVICE TO WORK!

That is all.
Happy Thursday!

Nursing Nonsense::Week Twelve

12. Monday, I had my last pre-clinical day. The day where we choose a patient, do lots of paperwork, etc etc.
11. Tuesday, I HAD MY VERY LAST CLINICAL DAY. I put that in all caps just in case anyone doubted my excitement. I'm sure they didn't though.
10. Tuesday night I did a 150 question review.
9. I have to take the 180 question review on Wednesday. We must pass 1 out of the 3 chances we get in order to graduate. Some schools call it their HESI test, we use ATI. This is on top of actually passing the two classes, and clinicals. It's alright, no complaining here.
8. Every night I have tried to push myself in order to study. We have test #3 Monday morning.
7. Oh, I'm working on my portfolio. I have most of it completed, just have to put it all together. No big deal, I hope.
6. I love Dancing with the Stars. I think Mark Ballas and his partner are totally cute.
5. We have a little over a month until graduation.
4. I have started applying for real nursing jobs!
3. I am totally obsessing over Christina Perri's song Jar of Hearts
2. I will never again have to wear those hunter green scrubs... I think.
1. If you follow me on twitter, you already know, my aunt is CANCER FREE!! However, there are still those who are fighting, so please continue to pray!

Happy Week Twelve!

A recap with photos.

Thursday, my sister and I took Ryleigh to the mall for one last girls trip before Judson came home. We rode the carousel TWICE,
and of course had a few cookies.

Friday, Judson got to come home.

Ryleigh was one very excited big sister,

and LOVES to help.

On Saturday, we grilled out, hung out, and lounged around.

We all enjoy Judson being home very much,

and are so thankful that he was able to join us.

God is so good.

Happy Happy Birthday

to my mama!!!




I hope you have a wonderful birthday!!! 143.

Nursing Nonsense :: Week Eleven

Week eleven was a little tough to get into. Coming back from spring break is always a task, right? You have a whole lot of days of nothing, then you get 2 hours of a lecture about head traumas. It was a lot to soak in to say the least. However, the week is almost over so I can't complain. I have ONE clinical day to go, and we are in the final stretch of school. A long stretch, but the final one for sure. Today, I had that really snazzy interview I have chatted about. You know, we have 8 questions, and a webcam. We didn't interview with another human being, we chatted with a webcam. We did get to watch our interview back, and redo questions if we wanted. I realized I answered the questions like a beauty queen, and smiled at the end of each answer. It was pretty funny to say the least. You definitely do get to see your body language and what not during the interview, so that was pretty helpful. Other than that, just glad to have something else completed. One step closer people!!!!

A far far away land.

Almost a year ago I wrote this post about fairytales. I don't want to blog about the same thing twice, but when I have something to write about, I just write. Sorry if I am repeating myself, but the times are changing, so this post will be a little different.

See, I grew up watching fairytales, I stayed away from the scary ones, and if it didn't end with a happily ever after I probably didn't watch it twice. I did watch Silence of Lambs once when I was way too young, maybe that is my problem now. I check my backseat everytime I get in my car, lock the doors almost immediately, and I am constantly checking the mirrors. I don't really think that this is a bad thing, but most days I am more paranoid than the average person. This paranoia is another reason I don't like car washes. I most certainly think someone will jump out of all that mess and try and scare me. It will probably happen one day. I will let you know.

So back to the fairytales. I believe in them. I know they exist. I know that just like Cinderella said, "One shoe can change your life." Maybe, just maybe I obsess over it a little too much. Sometimes my head is so far up in the clouds that I forget there is a world called reality right here all around me. I think I would rather be in my fairytale. The endings are better. Everyone is always chipper, and your heart would never be broken. They all can sing too, and I can't sing. We all know OUR reality is not nearly as charming. It sure does hurt a lot worse. It really makes you question many of things, and it most definitely makes you take a good look inside yourself. I could blame many of people. I could point the finger at the past. I could even point the finger at today. In the end, I am to blame. I also know that I have given up many things, thinking or hoping that my fairytale was coming true. Was it worth it? We all say we wouldn't be where we are today if it weren't for those choices, but I often wonder who I would be if I would have made different ones. And really, I don't know if this is even the person I want to be right now. Maybe I would be the same person living a different fairytale, maybe I would be a better person, or maybe not? I know what if's are very dangerous, and only hurt in the end. However, lately it is the only way my brain has known how to work. Maybe I am still trying to get to know this person I am today to figure out if this is who and what and where I want to be. I don't think it should be this tough to figure out, but if it were all easy peasy then this reality would be pretty boring. I don't want a glass slipper, or someone to lose me to figure out that I am supposed to be with them, so they can come running back at the end of the movie and tell me that I am the one, and they made some big mistake. Nope. It all sounds fun, but I don't want any of that. I want my own fairytale. I don't want to let someone go to figure out if they are who I am supposed to be with, because frankly LOSING SOMEONE SUCKS. I want my fairytale, exactly how it is supposed to be. Don't we all? I know my fairytale is in the making. I know I will always be a dreamer, because I always have.

I don't mind it.

weheartit.com

And you know what?

The other character in this fairytale won't mind it either.

Springtime is among us

Today I took my little girl to a local state park. She loves being outside in the sun, just like me of course, and we had a very peaceful time. The weather was perfect, I had a pretty awesome playlist blaring, and we just enjoyed our last day of spring break. I jammed to some songs that I haven't heard in quite a while, and they most definitely made me smile.





I hope everyone had a wonderful Sunday!!

Nursing Nonsense:: Week Ten

Hello and so long to week ten! This week has been rather exhausting, fun, anxiety-filled, and PRAISE worthy. Thank you all so so much for your sweet comments about our new little fella. He is doing much better, although we did have a minor set back on Thursday. However, it was not nearly what the doctors thought and baby Judson is doing so much better. My sister and brother in law have gotten to hold him twice now, and I know they are so thankful for that. He has so many wonderful people looking over him, praying for him, caring for him, and it is awesome to see all of it truly working. The NICU is very aware of NOT GIVING TIME FRAMES, which is okay in the long run, so we really do not know when he will be home. I know God is teaching us all patience because although Judson was ready to get here, he just isn't quite ready to go home. So we will wait. The days will go by very slow, I will tell everyone to give him a kiss from me (because I can't go back there), and I will continue to pray for his healing. Thank you all again so much.

on the flip side::

There was A LOT of nursing in week ten, but none of it really had to do with me in nursing school. Besides welcoming a new nephew, my week was spent playing with my favorite two year old who is a new big sister, catching up on some much needed sleep, hanging out with great friends, and enjoying what could be my last spring break, AND watching all of my favorite shows of course. I was so very happy my faves were safe on American Idol, Emily won the Bachelor, and a new season of one of my favorite shows airs in April! eeeeeekkk.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!!!

Happy Week TEN!!

Quick Baby Update

Judson is still in the NICU, his breathing is not nearly as fast but it is still too fast for a newborn. He is eating well, and all of his tests have came back great, but he still needs a little more time to get the fluid off of his lungs. His mommy and daddy are coming home today but not too far from him. Just say a little prayer for them because today will probably be a little tough. No one wants to leave their baby at the hospital, but God has this all under control. Judson is in great hands!









This bottom picture is Ryleigh on the left when she was still a newborn, and Judson is on the right.

Hello World

Judson arrived this afternoon at 2:01! He is the sweetest little thing, but he does have some fluid on his lungs and is back in the NICU for at least three days. Only Mommy and Daddy can see him for now, but no one can hold him until his breathing is not so labored. Besides that, everyone is doing as well as expected and we are putting it all in God's hands! Here are a few sweet pictures!

The weekend

This weekend kicked off my spring break. This spring break could be my very last one, how exciting, surreal is that? I had a wonderful weekend with great friends! Also, I might have some very exciting news this week! I'll keep everyone posted! How was your weekend??

Bloggies, I NEED YOUR HELP.

Does anyone watch American Idol anymore, besides me? Well I want to know who everyone thinks will win. I think it will be Lauren Alaina, but I love my little Thia Megia. I also am in love with Casey Abrams, and Paul McDonald (and not because he is from Alabama). But you know we have a pretty good track record for winning!!

SO WHACHA THINK???

Who will be the next American Idol?

Nursing Nonsense::Week Nine

Did you know this is nine in sign language?

Let's see, week nine started off pretty GRAND.

I ACED MY SECOND TEST.

I didn't have my normal clinical day on Tuesday.

I actually did a Home Health day.

Many props to home health nurses.

They are the ones who visit your home after you

have been discharged from the hospital.

The nurse I rode with was absolutely wonderful.

It has its advantages, as well as, disadvantages,

but I just don't know if home health is for me.

Not right now anyways.

Going into different people's homes is hard because you

aren't always sure what you are walking into.

It can most definitely be a surprise.

Not everyone lives how you expect, so

it makes you thankful for what you do have,

even if you complain about it every now and then. So

Tuesday was my home health day. Now I am down to just

TWO MORE CLINICAL DAYS.

and one of those days I will be considered the "charge nurse."

Now yesterday it RAINED,

and by rained I mean MONSOONED.

So much so that we lost power. I got ready by candlelight.

So I am sorry to whoever had to see me.

The power is back & the weather is clearing up.

I am crossing my fingers for spring to come for GOOD.

And lastly, all you Iphone users,

YOU NEED THIS APP.

bottom right, called the BLOGLOVIN app.

You manage the blogs you want to follow all within one app.

It is pretty spectacular.

GO GET IT!

so thank you to mrs amyschmamey for filling me in.

So there is my week nine.

I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN THAT THIS MARKS THE HALFWAY POINT PEOPLE.

LETS ALL CELEBRATE!

eeeeeeeekkk.

OOOOOhh, I was FEATURED on a blog right over here...

simplysunshineanddaisys

seriously, go read this girl's story. not mine.

mine is nothing compared to hers.

Happy Thursday Everyone!!

Giving up, Getting out

Today starts Lent.
Today I have decided to give up FACEBOOK.
whomp whomp whomp.
In the past I have given up dr. pepper, fried food, etc.
However, I think I am on that social network
WAY
TOO
MUCH.
I think it has become toxic.
I might even have a few withdrawals
by the 40th day.
But if God can sacrifice
EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR ME,
then this is the absolute
LEAST that I can do for Him.
What are you giving up?

Scenes from the weekend...

or really, just one scene.
and just a few days late.

these cupcakes were DELISH.

we had them Saturday at my sister's baby shower.

the shower for baby number 2,

who i can now say has a name.

JUDSON

will be here in less than

five

whole

weeks!!

I AM SO EXCITED.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week!!

fill in the blank Friday.

1.   The phrase or punctuation I overuse most is  I definitely put ... after almost everything. It was a bad habit I picked up from my blackberry and has carried over with me with my new phone.

2.  Today I am thankful for  passing my test...just one step closer.

3.  My best friend is   my sister and brother...and I am very grateful for that.

4.  A quirky thing about me is   if I am reading a book that I really like or has a good love story, I will read the last chapter to see how it ends, I am not a big fan of suspense. It is still fun to read the book, but now I won't get my hopes up. I do the same thing with the Bachelor on tv.

5.  This weekend I    am going to my sister's baby shower for baby #2.I can't wait to see everyone, and all the little goodies for the baby.

6.  Something that worries me is      school, I have a constant reminder in my brain of what could happen.

7.  On my night stand you would find     A picture, probably a few bobby pins, and a few other random items.

 

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Happy Weekend Everyone!