Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Since I have time...

So, not quite a year ago (I didn't start my blog until the summer), I wrote a post about my life, and where I was then. So a few more followers, and months later, I will give you another. One year ago today, I was starting up 2nd semester. I had just finished and passed first semester. I say that because the very year before that (fall 2008) I wasn't so lucky. I had actually failed one of my nursing classes, and by fail, I mean 72. 75 is the passing rate. It was a tragedy to say the least. TRAGIC. Nothing about me was prepared to handle such a predicament. I know now, and knew then (it was just harder to see past the tear soaken eyes), that there are far worse things in life than something you get a second chance at. Some people don't get more than one chance, and God allowed me another one. I will forever be grateful for that chance. I do not question why I failed, and I take complete responsibility. I, to this day, have a hard time telling people, because I take what people think to the heart, and it hurts. It hurts that people younger than me by years have graduated with their RN degree, and I am still trucking along. But I do my best to keep my head up, and just be thankful for this whole opportunity in general. I mean I just wrote a whole blog about people pitying themselves over something tee-tiny. So I know that what happened was just another bump in the road, and that my plan was far greater than anything I could ever imagine. I am thankful for that, and thankful that I am still in the process of learning so much about life and who I am and what I want to be. Although it would have been so very nice to graduate last May, some days I don't think God or I thought I was quite ready. I am okay with that. I don't see any of the time off was wasted. I see it as just more learning experience. So today, I am on my way to finishing up nursing school. One year ago today, I didn't see this all happening so fast, but I am so excited that it is. It is pretty surreal. However, I do know, I must get there first. I take my days as they come, or try to, because that can get pretty hard. Sure, I have my countdown, and I am constantly checking off the days in my calendar, but I know I must take this day by day. ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN. Also, so much has changed in a year. good and bad. good decisions, poor decisions, and decisions I am still trying to overcome. I have made new friends, said good bye to great friends, and made old friends new again. I am stronger, and sometimes wiser, but mostly only with the book smarts. I tell myself my common sense is lacking because I study so much, pushed all that common sense to the curb. So that is where my life is, one year later. I am one year older, almost 2 (my birthday is february 16), and I am about to be an aunt for the THIRD time. life is good. most days anyways, but in the end, I will be okay. ALSO :: my aunt was finally able to eat solid food. Can you imagine? Not eating FOOD for almost 6 months, and not by choice. Well, she is slowly but surely working her way back up, because GOD IS SO GOOD. and in an instant, my life is no longer complicated. My worries are not going to be the death of me, and I will take these road bumps one step at a time.

6 comments:

  1. I loved reading this , Praise the Lord your aunt can eat solid food! I've been praying for you and your family! Hope you did well on your test as i've been praying for you on that regards too girl! I'm proud of how far you've come, you've really persevered and love it! :) you'll be a fab nurse and def should go for the minnie mouse pin ;) Hope you have a great evening and rest up you deserve it! xx

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  2. This is a great post!
    It's good to read about people's trials, only because it makes me feel a tiny bit better about my own; plus, when people are overcoming them, it's an encouragement to me.

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  3. Random but I found your blog through, Run With Me. I love your blog, and that you are not afraid to talk about God :) He is so good to us, and sometimes we forget. Especially when we see a door closing behind us, he is opening another in front of us. Yay for almost being done with school, such a nice feeling!!

    xoxo
    www.stephanieandsuch.blogspot.com

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  4. You know I loved this post.
    It was very meaningful and touching.
    Weird too, because I finally had a very free-ing and honest talk with Chace about everything that I have been through.

    If you ever need anyone to talk to that "gets this" - you know I'm here. I'm living my hell still. But I know things are falling apart so that they can fall together.

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  5. Super lovely blog you have here!

    xoxo,

    colormenana.blogspot.com

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